Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Swimsuit Season

I know, I know--some of you are still wondering whether it's finally, really okay to put the snow shovels away for the season, and here I am about to talk about swimsuits. What am I? Heartless? I can't help it, you guys. It is NINETY-SEVEN DEGREES here today, and that is not a fluke, not a one-day oopsie-daisy. We are this close to triple digits, which means we are also this close to swimming pool weather. Right now, the water is still just a tad too cold because the air still cools down into the 50s/60s at night here. Come August, the pool will feel like a hot tub and I'll be begging Chris for a plane ticket to Seattle.


A couple of years ago, I bought a few bikinis at Target. I didn't give much thought to them because I was just happy to be healthy enough to enjoy the water with Quinn, to vacation in Mexico with him and Chris. I had my expanders in then, and despite their coconuts-on-a-board appearance, I was hardly self-conscious because I was alive. People could think I got a terrible boob job--let them! I thought.

After a couple of years of sun and chlorine and toddler tugging, my Target swimsuits need replacing, and suddenly I am feeling very stuck. I'm self-conscious about the port in my chest (whereas it didn't even cross my mind a couple years ago), so I'm looking at halter styles or a one-shouldered suit that might strategically hide the darn thing. I'm anxious about sun exposure post-radiation, so luckily rash guards are everywhere. I used to gravitate toward string bikinis because you can adjust them so there are no unnecessary lumpy parts, but I'm second-guessing myself with Quinn, who is at perfect string-pulling height.

And then I think: I'm being ridiculous and should just wear whatever stays put best with a toddler climbing on me in the water. Your kids do that too, right? Use your bikini bottoms as a step-stool? 

I picked out a couple of suits at Target last weekend to get me through the first few pool days, but the only one that fit is a total mom suit. "I'm sure you can do better than that," Chris told me. A mom at Quinn's swimming lessons recommended Victoria's Secret, but that seems too...spring-breaky, too young, too sexy for what I've got in mind. I've browsed online at J. Crew, Athleta, and Canvas by Land's End, but nothing is grabbing me, although I've gone back to these ones for a second glance. 
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And it is wonderful to occupy my brain with something so trivial as a new swimsuit. I do realize this. Don't fret: I have scans coming up in a couple of weeks, so I'll get back to discussing my anxiety and mortality soon enough. 

But seriously, I'd love your thoughts. Where else do you shop for suits that are reasonably-priced? Do more expensive suits hold up longer? If you've had a mastectomy/reconstruction or a port, does that affect your swimsuit style? Does having kids influence your choice of swimwear? Because I'm thinking I won't be such a jungle gym in a one-piece. And do you hate me for mentioning pool weather this early in the year, after the winter most of you have had? 

8 comments:

  1. The perennial question! From the catalogs that keep arriving at my doorstep... have you tried title nine or garnet hill? Not sure if they totally have what you're looking for but... two more places to look!

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    1. Garnet Hill--I love their pajamas, so maybe their swimsuits will be just as comfy? A girl can hope, right? Thanks for the suggestions!

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  2. Have same problem but did not get reconstruction( 10yrs ago mast.) Any suits and some dresses and t's also a problem For years Ididn't care but thinking of getting reconstruction now but 2 surgeries not a happy though Can't decide BCotner

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    1. Even with reconstruction, I still have my port, so I'm self-conscious about anything strapless or spaghetti-strapped. It makes me laugh at myself for all the times I was remotely self-conscious pre-cancer. Silly me.

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  3. Try Hapari or Lime Rikki - I've have good luck with them.

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    1. Thanks. I hadn't heard of either of those two before, so will check them out!

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  4. Swimsuits have always "scared" me, even before breast cancer. Now, well, let's just say I wear one only when I have to, which is almost never. I have bought a couple at Land's End. Cure Diva has some new ones. And by the way, I do not hate you for mentioning pool weather! I'm envious.

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    1. I've heard a lot of good things about Land's End suits. And it's May now, which means triple-digits will be here any minute...and for the next 5 months... Come visit! ;)

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