I got home from my hike before Quinn was out of bed, so I even had time to shower and savor my first cup of coffee, all thanks to our faulty smoke-alarm batteries. Then Quinn woke up, I made breakfast, packed his lunch, tried to brush his hair (unsuccessfully), and eventually got him dressed in the correct dinosaur shirt before heading to preschool.
After drop-off, I headed to chemo.
So now I feel like a slug.
I'm nauseous and mopey and feel like my limbs are stuck in buckets of cement, my head in a vice.
This morning, Quinn wanted me to build him a transformer house out of pillows. He was not amused when I asked if I could sleep on one of the walls. He's at school again today, while I'm parked on our couch trying to slog my way through a to-do list that mostly requires making phone calls or filling out disability paperwork, and even that feels like it might need to wait until this fog lifts a little.
So this picture from the top of a mountain is a reminder to me that it's worth it, that on my best days I still have energy for early morning hikes or taking Quinn to swim lessons, that there are better days just around the corner. There are better days ahead.